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Lost.

Ok. So exams are over. Now i dont study after school. I'm so bored. I don't know what to do with myslef...it's terrible.

Happy 'till the end.

Today was a good day.
I slept in, had some breakfast and went to work.
It was busy, but there were good people working.
The only bad thing was the customers, but thats a given.
I went out after work with some friends, we got sme coffee and sat in the nature strip of the main street.
The sun was out.
We were lauging, and having fun.
At that moment in my life,
I was happy.
And i'm glad.

It was a lovely day and i look forward to what tomorrow brings.

Running To Stand Still

And so she woke up She woke up
From where she was lying still.
Said I gotta do something
About where we're going.
Step on a fast train
Step out Of the driving rain
Maybe, run From the darkness
In the night. Singing ah
Ah la la la de day
Ah la la la de day.

Sweet the sin bitter the taste In my mouth.
I see seven towers But I only see one way out.
You gotta cry without weeping talk without speaking
Scream without raising your voice.
You know I took the poison from the poison stream
Then I floated out of here,
singing ah la la la de day
ah la la la de day.

She walks through the streets
With her eyes painted red
Under black belly of cloud in the rain.
In through a doorway she brings me
White golden pearls stolen from the sea.
She is ragin' she is ragin' and the storm
Blows up in her eyes.
She will suffer the needle chill
She's Running To Stand Still

Running to stand still, orignally by U2.
Are you running to get away, to leave and never look back?
To turn and run as fast as you can, without ever having to think about here again.
To abondon everything and all the people you will leave behind, but you don'treally care about the, becasue they never really cared about you.
Not becasue you feel alone, or traped, or even scared.
You just hate it here, and the people, and realise, in the end, after everything you've been through together, it doens't really matter.
It never did.
And it probably never will.
Think about that next time you're Running To Stand Still.
I do.

Your Social Worker

When your sparkle evades your soul,
I'll be at your side to console,
when you standing on the window ledge,
I'll talk you back from the edge,
I will turn, I will turn your tide,
Be your shepheard and I swear i'll be your guide,
when you're lost in the deepest darkest place around,
May my words walk you home safe and sound

When you say that i'm no good and you feel like walking,
I need to make sure you know its just the prescription talking,
when your feet decide walk you on the wayward side,
Climbing up upon the stairs and down the downward side,
I will turn, I will turn your tide,
Do all that i can to heal you inside,
I will be the angel on your shoulder,

I see you need me,
I know you do

Words James Allan, Glasvegas.
An idol of mine, from a favorite "Geraldine".

And thats why i like you.

Teen Angst.

Grow up.
Get over yourself.
Enjoy your life.
You have more than others could even hope for.
Harden up.

I'm happy.
And you should be too.

Virtual.

Life online is much better. I can make myself sound as interesting, funny and nice as i want.
Although i still don't quite know how to explain myself in a paragraph, i think i'm learning and becoming good at it.
Check up on it:
http://napoleonthegreat.tumblr.com/
http://classical21stcenturyyouth.blogspot.com/
http://www.myspace.com/cinderella_1841993
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=533337794&ref=profile

Enjoy.
My life summed up on four websites.
Kinda sad.
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Content.

"I am not happy, but i'm not unhappy about it." - Posner
I'm over it.
Work it out whenever, however.
I don't give a shit any more.
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Life of a Teenage Girl

I go to an all girls school, as you can imagine there is a lot of fighting.

I have always managed to stay away from it, and not get involved.
But, call it what you want, my friends have started
Recent events have led to me questioning whether i will still be see my friends when i'm not at school; will i stay in contact when we leave and go our seperate ways?
And more importantly, will i want to?

I want to scream at them all so they can hear me say:
If this is how its going to be until we finish, why are we trying?
If You aren't going to make an effort to be civil, then maybe i'll leave?

I don't want to hear you talk about your feelings, sort it out amongst yourselves, i'm not involved, it doesn't concern me, this is between you guys.

I hate it how you drag it out.
Fix it.
Or it will go to far, again, and cause more problems.
I will leave you alone.

Stalker

Stephanie Coco,
I can't help myself.
For you.
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Stop it now

I wish you would grow up and stop acting like a child.

Come down from your high-horse, and look me in the eye.
I wish you knew how much it annoys me, when you talk about me in front of me.
If only i could tell you how much i really don't like you.
But i can't because you, and everyone you hang around, all think the same thing.

But i'll play along with this game we have for a while longer, and hope that oneday you'll realise i don't sympathise with you, i dont care about you, and i want you gone.

P.S not about anyone you know.
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LUCKY!

I wish i could pack my bags and run away.
Take my coats, camera, and leave.
I wish i could be Alexander Supertramp and Ian Curtis.
I wish i was pretty.
I wish i didn't care what people thought, and didn't notice when you stare.
Look the other way.
Imagine if i could make a difference.

But i'm not that lucky...

Holidays - Part II

Last week of holidays.
Last few days of freedom.
I always do this, start them with the intention of doing some 'productive" every day. And it doesn't happen. I spent the first week working and sleeping. This week, a chousin visited, who is completely different to what i remember her being like when she last visited 3 yers ago. I have done more travelling though, Geelong, Melbourne, and around. Although i seem to have had the most fun in the weirdest places; petrol stations, kitchens, cars, and the couch.
Not the kind of places you would expect to remember, but i do.

Also haven't spent a lot of time doing things i should've done; homework, and more homework.

But i haven't so....meh.

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Holidays - Part I

And so the mid year school holidays begin. I have indulged in staying up late, becasue i can and sleeping in until, late also. In a change of events i decided i should leave the house. And what special occasion calls for this you may ask.

Hannah Montana Movie.

I know Hannah Montana is aimed at 10 year olds, but i can't help but be drawn and even want to see this film. Although i would consider myself a long-time Hannah fan, i'm not obsessed.

The viewing experience wasn't as good as i had hoped.
There was a young girl behind me, who was singing the songs, which not i even did, and her mother felt the need to explain the ENTIRE movie to her, as if she would understand how there was Hannah and Miley in the same scene.

I plan on seeing it again, and buying it for my own pleasure.

I also have become hooked on Gossip Girl, the new O.C. The characters are just as beautiful and their lives are just as complicateda dn they're rich! There is even a 'new' Ryan and Marissa. Although I still love the original couple.

I am also trying to wear my more eccentric clothes, but i am finding that i would love some stockings, all sorts; patterned, coloured, knitted.
I also think i would like to start knitting a scarf, to feel like i'm not wasting my time.

Until next time, stay safe.

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What's Old is New again.

My obsession with everything UK began with the Arctic Monkeys music. I soon discovered the bliss of some of the pioneering bands; Joy Division and The Smiths. Since then, my life aspirations have have become bigger than i ever thought they would.

I now want to travel, go to heaps of concerts, meet new people from different cultures, and i have recently indulged in attempting to learn photography.

I began my VCE studies this year (final years of high school) and because of this new outlook on life..everything is good.

This is my first blog.

Thank you for taking the time to read it.

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